Lindsey: in the shadow of Susie.

I was six years old
When my parents ran away
I was stuck inside a broken life
I couldn't wish away
She was beautiful
She had everything and more
And my escape was hiding out and running for the door

Somebody listen please
It used to be so hard being me
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
My chains are finally free
Don't feel sorry for me

All the days collided
One less perfect than the next
I was stuck inside someone else's life and always second best
Oh, I love you now 'cause now I realize
That it's safe outside to come alive in my identity

So if you're listening
There's so much more to me you haven't seen
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally see
Don't feel sorry-

Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Oh, my life is good
I've got more than anyone should
Oh, my life is good
And the past in the past

I was living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
I'm living in a new day
I'm living it for me
And now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally be
Don't feel sorry for me
Don't feel sorry, don't feel sorry for me(2x)

Living in, living in, living in the shadow
Living in, living in, living in a new day


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The video of the song "Shadow: by Ashlee Simpson was supposedly rumored to be about Ashlee being stuck in the shadow of her elder sister, the successful and well reconized Jessica Simpson. I think this song represents exactly the relationship between Susie and her sister Lindsey. While Susie was alive, Lindsey was constantly compared to her older sister, in my opinion, based on the impression the author Alice Sebold provides. Even after Susie's death, people are constantly saying "oh Lindsey, you look like Susie when..." or "Susie and you practically are twins", some comment of that sort.

With being compared to her sister often, Lindsey is changing her hair style and starting to wear make up. Although Lindsey loves her sister Susie, she just wants people to stop saying she looks like Susie. I don't say I blame her, Lindsey may appear to be a very strong person but inside it hurts to lose a sister. She tries to block it out, but with people are constantly reminding you how much you look like your sister, who was murdered, it does take a toll on one's mind.


NEWSFLASH: no matter how much you try to hide under make-up and clothes, you can't hide the pain and suffering the eye shows.